SO i have had BIC for the past 3 days for skipping! Yesterday after BIC i had to go to "make up" school or whatever the hell it is... try being silent for 10 hours and then tell me its not that bad. I dont really mind in the scheme of things... its nice to get a break from all the annoying people at school, but i did that before by just not going... eh... tomorrow i have saturday school, whoopdeedoooooo. I havent had my car for over a month. What else can i bitch and complain about? On the up side its almost christmas and i have ALMOST all my shopping done YAY. I read Dante's Inferno in less than a week, but reading does get old. I suppose i deserve all this shit but who can stop themself from complaining when you cant get out of the house? Most def not me bc im never home and being here this much is driving me CrAzY. O well, life moves on and soon ill be 18.

CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[	mood	|	crappy	]
[	music	|	nirvana, unplugged in new york	]

What happened to the days when you knew your best friend would always be your best friend just cuz you wore matching "BFF" bracelets?

When you got made fun of or stubbed your toe and knew you could run to your mom and know everything would be ok in her arms?

When girls were all on the same team... "girls vs boys" ...not girls competing against each other?

When your family was a real family and not just strangers all living under the same roof?

When everyone you met saw you for the true you, not just one side of you that changes depending on your company?

When you didnt know what exactly drugs were, just "bad things" and you didnt know how to have sex?

What the hell happened?!

A good friend of mine is in the hospital and i feel guilty. We had plans for saturday and he never showed so i thought he was blowing me off and became pissed. Sunday he didnt answer his phone either and i became worried. By sunday night i was praying he was just blowing me off. I was wrong and apparently im the last to know. Word travels fast in a shitty town and i dont really care to know whats going on w susy and joe but when it comes to ppl i care about i wish i were more informed. And not get bitched out for trying to be there for someone i care about. No matter what you do ppl will hear about it and its never approved of by the public. Fuck the public! Its sad when the only thing all the ppl around you worry about is each other and not their own problems.